like my title
i am feeling absolutely depressed rite now
everyone's graduated already
n here i am still lost, without a stupid degree
n having to do 1st yr again.
i am so tempted to js go do accounting or commerce although i hated it alot.
bcuz i certainly do not want to go thru uni again
feel lyk a complete loser
y didnt i js finish my studies when i had the chance
y did all the stupid shit had to happen
n who was there to help me?
everyone js stands outside n point their finger at me
i duno wat i want in life
so what?
think i dun find tht frustrating too?
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I Cannot Wait!!
I dont know abt u all,
bt sometimes, i feel a sudden emptiness, and that i dont really fit in here, and tht i'm not really meant to be here...
I remember the 1st time i heard a pastor said we're js passerbies to reach to heaven when i was very young, and it all made sense!!!
I really cant wait for the day where God's light breakforth from heaven, and shine on this earth..
Where ppl lift their faithless hearts and their faces meet God's light and see hope for the 1st time..
their mourning will turn into dancing
weeping turn into joy and laughter
My God is good, faithful and just.
He shall not let those oppressed have their pain be wasted
He'll bring justice to those who were oppressed and suffered
My heart breaks for the injustice, the oppression, and the pain inflicted on many arond the world due to various reasons such as poverty, violence, corruption, selfishness.. etc.
I've been tryin to talk to a couple of ppl, but it gets abit frustrating at times bcuz it seems that no one is really feeling the same as i do. If they do, they'll js say, well theres nothing we can do, or theres nothing we can do now.
True, bt that doesnt make this feeling im having inside go away.
I think abt it alot, almost everyday now.
I believe, what i'm feeling, is a glimps of what God feels.
He sees the injustice, His heart breaks.
I wish i can ask God y, i've asked for yrs yet, still the same answer , " I have my ways, and my ways r above ur ways, my thought higher than ur thoughts"
So, Im sure God has His reasons.
The thing is, rather than js zapping HIs fingers n making everything all right again,
God rather use imperfect sinful selfish ppl like me to reach out to the lost and shine His light and do good. To love, to forgive, to give mercy and grace and care for the lost.
Lord, please take my heart, search it, wash it clean and make it pure.
Wash my hands and purify me.
Prepare me, and keep me from swaying and straying aside.
Keep my eyes focused on You and that i would never turn my back on You.
Help me to not be distracted and have no other gods but You alone.
All glory be to You alone, my Lord and Saviour,
In Jesus's name, Amen.
bt sometimes, i feel a sudden emptiness, and that i dont really fit in here, and tht i'm not really meant to be here...
I remember the 1st time i heard a pastor said we're js passerbies to reach to heaven when i was very young, and it all made sense!!!
I really cant wait for the day where God's light breakforth from heaven, and shine on this earth..
Where ppl lift their faithless hearts and their faces meet God's light and see hope for the 1st time..
their mourning will turn into dancing
weeping turn into joy and laughter
My God is good, faithful and just.
He shall not let those oppressed have their pain be wasted
He'll bring justice to those who were oppressed and suffered
My heart breaks for the injustice, the oppression, and the pain inflicted on many arond the world due to various reasons such as poverty, violence, corruption, selfishness.. etc.
I've been tryin to talk to a couple of ppl, but it gets abit frustrating at times bcuz it seems that no one is really feeling the same as i do. If they do, they'll js say, well theres nothing we can do, or theres nothing we can do now.
True, bt that doesnt make this feeling im having inside go away.
I think abt it alot, almost everyday now.
I believe, what i'm feeling, is a glimps of what God feels.
He sees the injustice, His heart breaks.
I wish i can ask God y, i've asked for yrs yet, still the same answer , " I have my ways, and my ways r above ur ways, my thought higher than ur thoughts"
So, Im sure God has His reasons.
The thing is, rather than js zapping HIs fingers n making everything all right again,
God rather use imperfect sinful selfish ppl like me to reach out to the lost and shine His light and do good. To love, to forgive, to give mercy and grace and care for the lost.
Lord, please take my heart, search it, wash it clean and make it pure.
Wash my hands and purify me.
Prepare me, and keep me from swaying and straying aside.
Keep my eyes focused on You and that i would never turn my back on You.
Help me to not be distracted and have no other gods but You alone.
All glory be to You alone, my Lord and Saviour,
In Jesus's name, Amen.
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